As part of the Tarot Blog Hop community, we get a prompt and decide if we want to participate. For the Spring Equinox, the prompt is:
Out of the deck, what card or cards would you say represent you either professionally or personally?
This question made me think about how Suzanne Conway referred her tarot cards as: 78 Mirrors. Every single card is tethered to a slice of life; they were all a universal truth that reflected ourselves. While self-awareness was something I prided myself on, I decided to let my decks tell me what they thought of me as a tarot practitioner. What better way to breed understanding, by trying to see myself in different cards? The question I decided to ask a few of my decks is: “Which card do you think represents me best?”
Stella Tarot: You are the 3 of Wands
From the Stella Tarot’s LWB:
The higher you aim, the more valuable the result will be.
I can see that in myself. While the Stella Tarot has had a short time with me, the time it did share has been full of me aiming high. I’ve started on my journey in so many different arenas in my life: my professional career, my tarot reading, my studies in Fengshui, and my decision to start managing my own finances better. Right now, all I’m doing is aiming and moving slowly but surely forwards.
Sasuraibito Tarot: You are the 2 of Swords
From the Sasuraibito Tarot’s guidebook:
It feels safe to stick to what you already know, to hide uncertainty or weakness, and to close your eyes.
The card beckons to me: it tells me to stop being so scared to show my vulnerable feelings. I often feel like I don’t dare to flirt because I hate the feeling of being led on and I don’t want to lead anyone on. And while being aware of this has helped somewhat, it’s still difficult to let myself believe I can like someone and someone can return those feelings. Maybe this is an issue I can work with this deck.
Daniloff Tarot: You are the 9 of Wands
The Daniloff Tarot does not have a guidebook, so I’ll be using the Holistic Tarot:
…the Seeker … is a bit more resigned than the other characters, acquiescing to his circumstnaces, though certainly not willing to give anything up either.
I think this card flows from the story the Sasuraibito Tarot was telling me about myself. I keep defending myself, even though I’m tired. I don’t want to fight anymore, but as the card shows, I don’t feel like I have a choice. I hold a plethora of weapons around myself, ready to strike.
Wild Unknown Tarot: You are the Father of Pentacles
From the Wild Unknown Tarot’s guidebook:
But underneath is an incredibly passionate man who prioritizes the stability of his job, family, and home.
Awww, thanks TWU <3 As I grow older, I do feel like my parents matter more and more. I do feel the sudden need to ensure I can provide for them, and myself, in the years to come. My father recently lost a chance at re-contracting at his current workplace and that’s a significant blow to our income. While this card compliments me, it reminds me of my responsibilities.
It does seem like the decks I chose ended up answering the prompt — who am I personally, and who am I professionally? I have so much more work to do in both realms, but I will chip at them slowly. I find that when I pressure myself to do more shadow work, to meditate “better”, it ends up going the wrong way. Goenka, the person who founded the Vipassana Society worldwide, often repeated during his meditations, “Persistently — you are bound to succeed, bound to succeed.” This is what I whisper to myself from time to time when my anxieties flare up.
Thank you for the prompt, TarotBlogHop; it’s been helpful.