All the 9 of Swords I have

Tarot-flections: 2017 to 2018

Posted on December 22, 2017


2017 is coming to a close and it’s a good time to reflect. I’ve found this Tarot BlogHop with a prompt – to pick out tarot cards that represented 2017 and 2018. That said, I’ve done an overview of my life over the past year and there have been so many things that happened this year. I changed jobs, swapped industries, started a small side-hustle and more. I’ve also started to plan my goals for 2018 – things to do with not only my career, but also my woo.

(An aside: In a way, it was to be expected; I only learned of the concept when I was close to the end of the year but according to Eastern Astrology, one of the sirens hovered over my 2017.)

2017 – my Past Lessons

The theme of my year based on my 2017 Year Ahead Spread was the reversed Three of Swords; I do believe I have left a lot of emotional burdens behind in 2017, shrugging off a lot of preconceived notions of what I wanted and what I needed (more about 2017 here). But the Three of Swords did not come close to this card that kept coming back in all my readings. This card is the Nine of Swords.

All the 9 of Swords I have

The card of literal nightmares was the one that never failed to keep reappearing, even in my one card draws. Just like how I felt, the card appeared in my readings much more at the beginning of the year. There was an impending dread that anchored to the pit of my gut every day as I went to work; I did not enjoy a lot of the aspects of my work, even though I should. I literally had nightmares.

It’s so strange looking back because now that I’ve changed tracks, it’s almost like seeing the sun after staying in the basement for weeks. I’ve asked if I could do this and that at my new workplace; the answer I got was to do whatever I deemed necessary to do my best. It startles me. I’m not used to this autonomy and it makes me think about the mental prison I had built for myself. I let circumstances around me dictate my mental wellness.

The Nine of Swords was not only a card about nightmares, but a card of that relief when you realised that nightmares are temporary. Even though it was terrible, that’s all they were – mental constructs that your head made up. Once I realised that there was a way out, that I was the only one in my path to relief, I left as soon as I could.

I recently did a Celtic Cross reading for myself, and the Nine of Swords appeared as the foundation of myself. I will take all the pain that I’ve been through, pain that spans beyond 2017, and build myself up with that knowing. To help me with this, I am planning to use this Card Buster spread created by Asali Earthwork.

2017 was the Nine of Swords for me, not only because the card kept coming back but because I woke up.

2018: my Hope for the Future

I’ve done a Year Ahead Spread for 2018 and the theme of the year happens to be the reversed Knight of Pentacles, but I thought I would pick a specific card for 2018. As with every year, I always am hoping for some major shakes – the Celtic Cross reading I did said that my hopes and fears were the Tower. It is true – I am afraid but at the same time I want it to happen.

For 2018’s major shake, I’m picking the Hanged Man.

All the Hanged Man tarot cards I have

The Hanged Man used to be an inscrutable card for me; I never really understand his stance and his look. I never understood why a guy hanging upside down could have been considered enlightened. He’s alone, away from reality; how could he know suffering? Sometimes I saw him as a deluded Hermit LOL.

Yet in 2017, the layers of this archetype slowly peeled away and I’m beginning to see him. There’s a sense of self-sacrifice; he put himself up there so someone else did not have to. And why not him since he does not feel that discomfort from being different? Above all, he sees.

This is what I’m hoping to emulate in 2018. I want to concentrate on my spiritual development. I’ve started serious meditation late in 2017 but really hope I’ll be able to do better at it. These may be prescient words but I find myself feeling more at peace from day to day.

In meditation, I see the Hanged Man. No, I don’t do those stepping into the Tarot card meditations, but I find that during meditation, we have attention and we have meta-attention, as if we are trying to look at our own minds from afar, like we are detached. This is where I see the Hanged Man, my own Hanged Man in my head, watching and observing quietly. It is this meta-attention that I think will be the key to my spiritual cultivation in 2018.

In Between: the Present

In the subliminal in-between months like December and January, I hope I’ll be able to get my shit together and make detailed plans on what I want to do, or I’ll run on autopilot like a lot of 2016 and some of 2017. I have to consciously not let myself just be on autopilot if I want to make something of myself.

Armed with my Hobonichi, my Metaphysician’s Day Planner and OmniFocus, plus my hopefully ironclad will, I’m going to succeed in 2018.

Do you guys have any idea how you’re gonna achieve your goals for 2018? Let me know how! I love having some discourse on how only because I’m a little all over the place and some advice will be great.



  • Jay December 22, 2017 at 5:38 am

    It’s awesome the way you’ve blended different deck cards together for this, the contrast is pretty amazing. Thanks for giving me an insight into expanding the possibilities for using Tarot.

    • Casper December 22, 2017 at 5:44 am

      Thanks for your comment Jay! I found that looking at the same card across decks helped me in understanding its archetypal energy 🙂 maybe I should’ve talked more about that! Cant wait to get insight from reading your post later on 🙂

  • Arwen Lynch-Poe December 22, 2017 at 5:43 am

    Enjoyed this. Your comments on the Hanged Man made me giggle. 😀 I can so see him as that detached, out-of-touch person.

    • Casper December 22, 2017 at 6:04 am

      Hahahaha thanks Arwen <3

  • Karen Sealey December 22, 2017 at 6:26 am

    The Hanged Man as a delude Hermit! I’m really enjoying that perspective 🙂 I hope he reveals his secrets to you in 2018.

    • Casper December 22, 2017 at 6:44 am

      Thanks Karen :)) I hope so!!

  • Joy Vernon December 22, 2017 at 6:39 am

    I like hearing about your experience with the Hanged Man. Enlightening and a wonderful understanding of the card.

    • Casper December 22, 2017 at 6:47 am

      Thanks Joy <3

  • Asali December 22, 2017 at 8:48 am

    I’m coming to the same understanding with the Nine of Swords- the relief that comes with acknowledging a certain situation is a nightmare, and so that means I can wake up from it. It’s not forever. I can mine the shadows for whatever it is I’m being forced to pay attention to and leave the nightmare realm and step into the light. I dig that.

    • Casper December 22, 2017 at 10:24 am

      Thanks Asali; your insights are always welcome. You’ve been a source of calm knowledge for myself and I appreciate this comment! Can’t wait to use your Card Buster spread if the 9 of Swords still continue to come up for me 🙂

  • Ania December 22, 2017 at 3:45 pm

    The reason we have nightmares is our subconscious trying to deal with the things we haven’t allowed our conscious to confront, so confronting the situation is the solution. As for the Hanged Man, I love that you think he’s a deluded Hermit. He’s also fairly chilled about life thwarting progress and uses the time for planning, which is just what you are doing 🙂

    • Casper December 22, 2017 at 4:03 pm

      Thanks for your insight Ania! It’s really helpful 🙂 yes I found that I had to confront the situation to be able to move forwards.


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